Today I was sorting through some of my boxes. I had to figure out what was mine and what I really wanted to keep. It was nice to unpack my books and figure out where I wanted to start reading again. I looked at all my binders remembering how organized I used to be or was going to be...again.
Back in the early 2000s I was in college for vocal music performance. I wanted to show my passion to the world through music. Yes, to those of you who don't know much about me I once did a lot of singing and song writing mostly on the piano that is until a professor told me in a small amount of words that ...I sucked. I quit then. I did not want anything to do with music after that. I tried business, but somehow that did not fit. I got my cosmetology license, was a licensed billing agent, and now I am a claims examiner.
You ever wonder when things go wrong what would have happened if you had taken the other road? Some days I wonder what would have happened if I had chosen music over a life. I wonder what would have happened had I been more extroverted in college and who would have been a part of my life. I feel I have a strong life. There is a lot of strength. There was a divorce, being an adult at 7, knowing something was wrong when certain family members looked at me with their religious hypocritical views, and then how my marriage fell to a divorce. I never wanted to get divorced.
Strength, it's my word for life and how I live it. It's how I want to be and who I want to be. Strength, is a word that is going to be permanently a part of my life.
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