Missing You

After watching a few movies these past few days, I realize that my blog needs a bit of heart and that I have been missing someone in my life, but I cannot do anything about it.  You see this person replaced me because the individual did not think I understood certain aspects of this person's life, but I did.  The person disregarded how I feel or felt towards that person, but that is not important to the individual.  I do not totally know if the pain comes from the fact of losing a friend as a result of being replaced or knowing that the individual will not miss me.

It may be weird to contemplate these things, but everyone wants to be worth something to someone else significant in their lives.  I realize that I cannot make someone feel for me what I feel for that individual, but I can walk away in processing through the situation.  For now, I cannot completely control who I miss even though I pray eventually this will wear off.

I am finding out that with missing a person comes regrets that you have to overcome because of the confusion of what is real and what is not.  If one thing was not significant, why would anything else be like?  I actually learned this lesson a long time ago with my ex, which taught me that words are just words.  The phrases 'I love you' or 'I'm sorry' do not hold any meaning and when actions start to say the same thing you question the authenticity of the sentiments.  For me, I found it easier to presume that it means nothing because it gives you an easier foundation to walk away.

So in correlation with missing a person, it is a sign that time is telling you to move on.  I am considering this as growth meaning I need to miss someone because I know how to appreciate a person.  I guess I am just fulfilling and obligation and that in itself is okay with me. :D