I decided to take a break from my introverted series considering I am still doing some analysis and gathering information on body language of an introvert. I cannot just write something without experiencing it, correct? So today I wanted to share something that I have been fantasizing about every day after I get off work.
Take a look at the building pictured. Look at the structure, the height, the difference in windows, and that it faces south. Since I have moved I have fallen in love with this building and it is not even finished yet. I know it sounds so insignificant because who really cares about a building, but imagine the infinite possibilities.
At night after I work out, I like to ride around town to familiarize myself with my new 'stomping grounds.' I drive over bridges to see the lights continue beyond the horizon and then I think of what a wonderful sight it would be from the top of this building, the potential of a New York Skyline type of view, the type you only view in movies, specifically the romance ones and even though I do not want that romance with anyone in particular now, I want to just have the passionate feeling of freedom.
So I drive passed this building dreaming of myself on the roof as I watch the sun go down and once it is gone I would step to the edge of the roof, spread my arms to my sides as I looked up toward the sky, and lean forward falling toward the ground. I know many of you are probably flabbergasted by the thought of plummeting to the ground, but that is not the thought that comes to mind. I close my eyes imagining the air rushing passed my body because for that brief moment, I have no concerns, no responsibility, and just the rush of adrenaline to the point that it takes my breath away. Pure. Utter. Freedom.
Life weighs us down and sometimes it is hard to carry that weight around. It is not the same as lifting weights physically, but it still comes with experience that is suppose to make us stronger. I moved to this new town gaining clarification that I have blocked out for years and have unfortunately learned I have to face the things of my past since I can no longer just hide them away. I have to face the truth that these things, these events and actions were real. It is still hard for me to accept those events knowing that somewhere inside I knew better.
The thought of jumping off this building is purely a thought of flying, flying free and that is what I want to do here in a new location. I want to try new things, experience new things and remove all limitations from my life. I want to remove all fear from my life because a person should not be caged up when all there is in life...is opportunity.
May your freedom come and your dreams come true. And may that happen in your life a lot sooner than 60 yrs of age.
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